hello loves.

a lot of things in my life have changed. & change is good so...

i'm moving on to xanga. e_dalaga.

yes, you need to be my friend to read my posts.
& even if you don't want to post on xanga, create an account anyway because i miss talking to the lot of you.

1. Go to http://www.careercruising.com/.
2. Put in Username: nycareers, Password: landmark.
3. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions.
4. Post the top ten results.



1.


Office Manager


2.


Association Manager


3.


Director of Photography


4.


Arts Administrator


5.


Website Designer


6.


Illustrator


7.


Director


8.


Producer


9.


Computer Animator


10.


Interior Decorator

One Word Answers:


1. Where is your cell phone?
pocket

2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend?
dyslexic

3. Your hair?
black

4. Your mother?
amazing

5. Your father?
bantot

6. Your favorite thing?
singing

7. Your dream last night?
nothing

8. Your favorite drink?
water

9.Your dream car?
lexus

10. The room you're in?
library

11. Your ex?
stupid

12. Your fears?
loneliness

13. Where do you want to be in 10 years?
abroad

14. Who did you hang out with yesterday?
abs

15. What you're not?
inconsiderate

16. Muffins?
yummy

17. One of your wish list items?
iPod

18. Where you grew up?
home

19. The last thing you did?
punched

20. What are you wearing?
mango

21. Your TV?
off

22. Your pet?
bob!

23. Your computer?
broken

24. Your life?
pleasant

25. Your mood?
irritated

26. Missing?
keys

28. Your car?
maligaya

29. Your work?
fuck

30. Your summer?
hell

31. Like someone?
smiles

32. Your favorite color?
red

33. When is the last time you laughed?
nanoseconds

34. Last time you cried?
forever

35. School?
ok

My VIS 140 final. I hated the class ... but I really like my final project: Through the Looking Glass.

Enjoy.

actually, i'm just avoiding studying.

I know I've said this a million billion jillion times, but I mean it this time.



My livejournal is going on a permanent hiatus while gotnic.net is going on an extended one. So don't expect anymore posts on here. I don't want to delete it just yet. For the memories anyway.

So if you're looking for updates, you'll have to check out gotnic.net or you can just e-mail me here: .

So ... I made the Tritones. For the non-UCSD students reading this, it's one of 3 a cappela groups on the UCSD campus.



I didn't think I was going to make it, but I did, so from now on whenever you're in the SD area and the Tritones are performing be sure to be there, because they *ahem* we ... rock. Haha.

The audition process was less nerve racking than I expected it to be. Saturday I came in and sang the national anthem then a song from Rent called "Take Me or Leave Me." I did a few rhythmic excercises and sight reading (which FREAKED me out because Bobby taught me how to do it on Friday and I didn't feel at all prepared). I got called back and came in today and sang with different combinations of people auditioning to test my blend and that was it.

So I'm EXTREMELY excited. We have a meeting tonight at 8pm so more excitment for me. :)

How can I POSSIBLY sit and study now?? Haha.

my vis 140 class and professor are really stupid.

super retarded.



my first project is a 25x25 pixel self portrait. she went over how to open a photoshop file, how to select the pen tool, and how to choose color. she even asked if we knew what symmetrical meant. i swear i feel like i'm in a class for remedial art students.

fuck. a whole quarter of computer art for dummies.

LA was fun as usual.



I got my prescription for eye glasses on Friday. I guess staring at a computer for hours at a time has finally caught up with me. I had a slight astigmatism in my right eye back in the day, but it's gotten worse recently and one has formed in my left eye as well. On top of that I have slight near-sightedness in my right eye which makes it worse than the left which would explain why anything far away gets blurry as soon as I close my left eye. So I should be getting my glasses in about a week or so which will make it a lot easier to see in my lecture halls.

Saturday was my nephew's fourth birthday. Lots of trains, lots of bugs and lots of kids screaming. I think everyone had a fun time all around.

Sunday we all went hiking at Solstice Canyon. BEAUTIFUL place. Gorgeous waterfall. Lots of excercise.

All in all a good weekend.



And now I can't wait for tomorrow when I actually get to attend some sort of class. It's gonna be great.

I'm back in LA for the weekend for various appointments, my nephew's birthday party and family time in general.


School today was ok, though I feel incredibly unfullfilled. I only had one class today which was Kester's History of Photography class but because of the massive amount of freshmen (cars) on campus I couldn't find a parking spot and was half an hour late which was just in time to miss all of class (since he didn't lecture at all today). But I was still able to sign in (thankfully!) and therefore will be dropped from the class. Seriously, that would piss me off so much considering I waited weeks to get into this class.

I really can't wait for next week when I'll actually be able to go to class. It'll be sweet.



On a side note, I am now a legal drinker. As of a couple of days ago. YAY!

YES! I am in VIS 158. All is right with the world and I can now stop freaking out about my schedule.


This is so sweet.

Oh and Arielle, just because I'm lazy and I don't feel like logging on to my myspace, thanks for the comments! "Jacob's Tree" is my favorite, too. Oh and yeah about the whole 21 thing. BOO. Don't tell anyone, I'm trying to keep it as under wraps as possible.

But if you're in the area on the day, give me a call. I know you live in far away Palm Springs, but you know if by chance. E-mail me. I'll give you my digits. ♥ There will be some kind of drinking and moping about going on (nothing close to resembling celebration, but I'd love for you to join me in wishing I was 19 again).

Sometimes, I make myself pause whatever I'm doing and I think about my friends, my family, the people I love all over the world who I haven't seen in minutes, days, months or years.



I think it's really important to do this because it's so easy to lose track of the time.

And it's sad, because I feel so much more disconnected from my loved ones than I have in the past. Not so much my immediate family because I try and keep up with them on a day to day basis. But my friends, my closest friends, my best friends ... I haven't seen or spoken to some of them in months.

I mean, over the summer I had no idea where my best friends WERE much less what was going on in their lives. And lately I feel like I have no idea what's going on in people's lives. It's as if I'm too far removed to keep up with anything. As soon as I "catch up", I blink and I'm far behind again.

That's why it's important to take that pause. I'm beginning to think I should do it more often. Because one day I'm afraid I'll look back to see my shadow and no one else's.

When I was little, I was absurdly thin. So much so that my relatives would constantly tell my mom she must not be feeding me enough. This is when the whole cheese obsession started. My mom, in an attempt to help me gain weight would feed me slices of cheese throughout the day. And it worked well enough that I started to put on some weight.

Growing up though, I always had a discerning taste. And since I had been eating cheese my entire young life, I would put cheese on practically every meal I had. And not just a bit, but excessive amounts ... I mean, I still surprise myself with the amount of cheese I ingest in one day. The problem was, my stomach was always giving me trouble. I'd get sick all the time.


As I got older though, my stomach stopped be so sensitive, and I figured it was just a childhood thing (like the BAAAD asthma I had when I was living in the Philippines). But when I got into college, the stomach pains started happening again, so I went to the doctor to get it checked out. Who would have thought that me, Miss Dairy Queen (or Moo Moo Cheese Oooh as my cousin likes to call me) is and has always been lactose intolerant. She told me that my body had gotten used to the intake of lactose and so I only had a mild case but would begin to get worse as I got older if I continued on the diet I had. And of course, I ignored what she said and continued to crave and eat all the dairy I love so much.

But now it's starting to get worse. I can't even have a glass of milk anymore without feeling the need to vomit. And I LOVE milk. So I've decided to cut out (most!) dairy from my diet. Well ... everything but cheese. Because cheese IS my diet.

So no more milk, frappuchinos, cake, ice cream and all the stuff I love. And that's my lactose story from beginning to end. Not very interesting but it's something I'm quite sad about.



I've also started running. I'm not going to lie ... it SUCKS. But I've recently put on more than a couple of extra pounds and I'd like to shed this excess weight before my trip to the Philippines in December. Nothing like a dozen or so tiny cousins to make a person want to lose 20 pounds. So that's my goal. Get down to 125 lbs. I'll probably only make it to 135 lbs., but it's good to aim high ... or low in this case.



Oh and in good news, I'm now #2 on the waitlist for VIS 158. I'd really like to get into the class. Not that VIS 60 wouldn't be nice but it doesn't fit into my schedule as well as it did before they changed the times.

Mmk, I should get back to work.

Click and print. click and print.

Dang ... my morning was a hectic one.



First off, if I had known that I would have to walk up a MASSIVE hill to get to class at Mesa, I would have just taken the class at Miramar and slept at Jacob's on Sundays and Tuesdays. What really suprised me though is the fact that I couldn't for the life of me find parking today. At 8 AM it took me half and hour to find parking at Mesa. That's a bit ridiculous.

And then I couldn't even find parking at Shores today. I had to buy a stupid one day pass just in time to miss my entire Calculus class.

I mean, you'd think that 40 minutes would give me enough time to get from Mesa to UCSD in order to be at Calc for at least an hour. But no, it took me fifteen minutes alone to walk to my car then another 45 minutes just to get out of the dang parking lot. Bah! And then of course I exited out of Mesa to Genessee so I couln't find the freeway and had to take Genessee all the friggin' way to UCSD.

Ridiculous, I tell you.



My philosophy class isn't all that bad except for the fact that it's the exact same class that I took in the 10th grade with an even duller teacher than Mr. Lemmon, if that's possible. But I get to read Plato again so that should be nice.

Work in about half an hour. Then tons of calc homework after that. Yessiree, Bob ... it's gonna be a _FUN day!

So because the visual arts department is FOREVER retarded, unorganized and irresponsible ... my entire schedule is screwed up.


The day AFTER the deadline for continuing students to sign up for classes, I got an e-mail saying that VIS 60 has changed times which just happens to be at the same time as my VIS 140 lab. So I figure I'll sign up for VIS 158 but I can't until the 5th of September and since no one at the VIS undergraduate office wants to pick up a phone I couldn't have them hold me a seat and it is now full.

F*ck you VIS ARTS.


And does anyone have Aaliyah's unreleased songs? I found Where Could He Be last night, but I want Steady Ground. I've never heard Time (leaked this January), Giving Up or Dont Think They Know, so if anyone has those, I'd be thoroughly grateful if you sent them to me (or pointed me in the right direction). K, thanks bye!



Steady Ground

Like the homeless in the road
I'm starving in my soul
They can't get me to go
If there is no you

Just like a rose
I sat and watched us grow
And you never hear me low
I know this love is true
We've seen it through
It's crazy like the blues
And I've always stuck with you
I want to help share your love
It can't be sold
It can't be priced with gold
And you've always took control
Right now I know


I'm on steady ground when you're around
See you always bring comfort to me
I'm on precious ground when you're around
And you've always been so precious to me
I'm on protected ground when you're around
Because I always feel so safe around you
I'm on steady ground when you're around
And I always feel this way when you're around

When you're around
You hold it down
You put it down
Piece of the ground
You changed my frown
When love's tuned loud
The sweetest sound
Always there when I

I'm on steady ground when you're around
See you always bring comfort to me
I'm on precious ground when you're around
And you've always been so precious to me
I'm on protected ground when you're around
Because I always feel so safe around you
I'm on steady ground when you're around
And I always feel this way when you're around

Ain't no doubt in my mind
Guess I can't stop destiny
Got to be the best for me
From love you cannot run
Even under the gun
At the end of the day
No use looking around
Right now I'm on steady ground
Ain't no doubt in my mind
Guess I can't stop destiny
Got to be the best for me
From love you cannot run
Even under the gun
At the end of the day
No use looking around
Right now I'm on steady ground

i baked a cake for abigail and the charlies to thank them for helping me move.


jacob decided to stick his fingers in the side before i could take a picture.

but it's ok, because they still liked the cake.




picture later.

oh and a picture of a painting i did in high school.

i know ... the suspence must be killing you.

So I've pretty much moved into my new place. It's great except for 3 things:

1. The front bolt-lock doesn't work.

2. Two of the windows don't have locks on it so I have to use a bar instead.

3. The electricity in my room decided to stop working as I was unpacking earlier this evening.

I'll have to call my landlord in the morning to make sure this stuff gets fixed. I think lighting is kind of a necessity.



This weekend was really great. Friday morning I call my mom to ask her if she can buy a ticket for Abigail to come down and help me move. Instead, she, my father and Abigail head down THAT DAY and help me pack up ALL my stuff as well as move my bed and a bunch of boxes to the place in North Park. This is all amazing because my mom had worked ALL day and my dad had work at 4:30 AM Saturday morning. In other words, my parents got to San Diego around 5 PM and left later that night at 11 PM. AMAZING.

THEN ... they came BACK on Sunday, even though I told them the Charlies would be helping me and the move just went that much smoother and wonderful. Seriously, I wish I had this kind of relationship with my parents back in high school. Of course, I still loved them and all, but back then we used to butt heads SO much more than now. And when my mom thought she saw "skin heads" near my building she offered to pay whatever fee breaking my lease would cost because she was worried about me. So adorable. Seriously.

And Abigail's been here helping me pack and unload and decorate.



Seriously, my family is ridiculously lovely.

My friends are wonderful as well. Tim and Tom spent the afternoon helping me load and unload crap in my U-haul even though they have a midterm on Tuesday.

On top of that, Jacob wrote me a long e-mail this morning and then wrote a second one later in the afternoon. I miss him terribly and I'm so glad he's coming home next Sunday. ♥ ♥ ♥



I just can't get over how great this day was.